“Something’s gotta change
Sounds of laughter and happiness turn my teardrops to rain
Been bearing this burden for too many of my days
Looks like breezes of Autumn done finally blew my way
Like memories of yesterday”
– Outkast on “13th Floor/Growing Old“
We all experience rites of passage in our life. Whether it’s birth, getting your drivers license, or graduating, there are certain moments that serve as transitions. It’s a surreal feeling because on one hand you’re letting go of your past, while on the other you’re embracing an unknown future. It’s essentially growing up, but in a more single-moment, grandiose kind of way. It’s a moment where we say goodbye to yesterday because there’s something new to embrace.
What’s up my peoples? Welcome one and all to the Ajaxxx.com Opinions Column. This is the sole spot on planet earth (shoot, the whole galaxy) where you can get deep within my brain to find out what’s going on. For those returning to the site, THANK YOU! Welcome back! And for those that’re new to the site, this is where you’ll find me talking about anything and everything that’s on my mind. I usually do this once a month, and here it is for June. We’re surrounded by some rites of passage and I thought I’d spend a bit of time on the topic here.
Before I dig into that though, I just wanted to give you the update on my music. For the year that’s 2015, I’ve been quiet. I haven’t released any new music or videos. No freestyles in other countries, no Music Mondays, no nothing. I was planning on releasing four videos this year but I’ve let it get away from me. I guess you could say I’ve had to prioritize other things and juggle more than usual. Well anyway, I’m expecting to get “Broken Dreams”, my next single, back very soon. If all goes well, we should hear something new very soon. And with what I’m going to say next, maybe lots more…
So rites of passage! Why, oh why, did you title this column that? Well, for several reasons. I recently moved and the experience has been quite emotional for me. I said goodbye to one place and transitioned into a new one. It was pretty intense to do so, yet extremely rewarding at the same time. I’ve been wanting to relocate for awhile now, where I could build up a new music studio and return back to recording. Well, I finally did it and I’ll finally be recording again. While it’s excitinggg to be in a new place and in a new recording space, it is bittersweet. I had to leave the place where I used to be, which was tough. And if you know me, I don’t deal with letting go well. So while I’m still adjusting, I’m optimistic too. I guess it’s time I embrace this transition.
I’ve also been doing a TON of thinking about the future too and where I wanna go. I know I can’t stay stationary forever. I have to change, grow, and evolve. I can’t be selfish and I have to think about others. And I can’t be stagnant because stagnation has disastrous results. So I’ve been pushing myself – to learn more, do more, and become more. And yes, I realize I’m being extremely vague lol. I guess that what I’m trying to say is…while I was ready to embrace a new home, I’m not ready to embrace everything. It’s difficult to balance it all and I’m still learning as I go.
Life is all about change. That’s what I’ve heard, at least. So if life IS all about change, why do we struggle with letting go? Shouldn’t we just expect it? I dunno. I suppose our hearts get involved and it gets complicated. You become comfortable with a lifestyle, or a person, or a place, and moving onto the next thing then grows harder. It’s still early and I’m working on it. Here’s to accepting, and embracing, my rites of passage.
And with that said, I’m outta here. Stay up, stay safe, and hold ya head…Ajaxxx signing out, PEACEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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