“Talking ’bout progress, I ain’t lookin’ back
You know I run track, try not to get lapped”
– Jay-Z on “What We Talkin’ About”
With change, there comes transition. There’s a period where you’ve got one foot in the past while you’re trying to move forward and it’s not easy. But once you get past transition…that is, once you pull yourself into the present…there comes progression. And progression, my friends, is addictive. Welcome to my life.
What is up world? What’s popping? Welcome to the Ajaxxx.com June 2016 Opinions Column aka the month where I finally catch up (kinda sorta lol) with the posts on this site. For those that’re wondering, this is where I talk about my life and give you a behind-the-scenes look into Ajaxxx. For those that’re returning to the site, welcome back and glad to have you again. And with that said, let’s talk specifically about this progression that I mysteriously alluded to in the intro.
So last month, I spoke about transition. I talked about how change equals transition and transition equals entering the unknown. Well, I spent the last month “transitioning”, you could say. Everyday, I did something to progress forward. I had a list and day by day, I crossed something else off of it. Whether it was something small like responding to an email, to something bigger like buying furniture, there were a ton of things I had to do in order to “get back to normal.” And while I’m still not 100% back to normal, I feel wayyy better than I did last month. Why? Because I’ve progressed a great day since last month.
I feel like I’ve talked about this in previous Opinions Columns, but progress is like a drug to me. It’s addictive. Once I’m rolling, I can’t stop. I want to cross more off my list and I don’t want to sleep till I get everything completed. Obviously, you can only do so much everyday so I had to constantly remind myself to set limitations too. But yeah, everyday I was making moves and getting things done. It felt really great.
This brought me back to a time in my life…maybe 2006 or 2007…where I was working extra hard. I had released the “Something to Prove Promo” and was working hard on “The Set-Up.” I was writing, recording, photoshooting, mixing, websiting, etc. It took up all my time and I loved it. I would feel overwhelmed by the amount of work I was doing but I knew it was worth it. It was my love and what I enjoyed doing. I remember telling myself how addictive the feeling of progress was and how I want more of it. Eventually, life got in the way and priorities cut in line. But I’m saying, this month has kinda got me back on that vibe.
So throughout this month, I’ve started to listen to new beats again. I’ve got a few new tracks on my radar that I’m working on now. It’s ironic cuz this feeling came from buying stuff for the crib lol. But I mean, I guess life is all about surprises, right? So I’m back on track and back on the mic. Expect some new music from me soon, I promise!
Anddd with that said, I must bizzounce. I’m still “transitioning” and I still have lots of progress to make. I’d say by next month, I’ll be back back and we’ll be in full swing Ajaxxx mode. Until then…
Stay up, stay safe, and hold ya head. Ajaxxx signing out, peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
