“I’m on the pursuit of happiness, and I know
everything that shine, ain’t always gonna be gold
I’ll be fine, once I get it
I’ll be good”
– Kid Cudi on “Pursuit of Happiness”
They say when it rains, it pours. I’ve also heard that when it shines, it blinds. Well, that pretty much sums up the month that was July. There should really be one saying that encompasses both. Hands down, July was one of the most rollercoaster months EVER for me. Actually, that’s a consistent theme in my life, but it was more evident than ever in July. It was crazy. It was dramatic. And yes, it definitely pushed me to the limit. I’m not even sure how it happened, but I’m glad to be in August. That’s really weird to say, especially since my birthday’s in July (and I always look forward to July). But yes, let me tell you all about it.
Before I get too deep though, welcome one and all to the Opinions Column. This is the one spot where you can get into my head and dissect it for all its worth (sounds disgusting, haha). Anyway, let’s talk about the month that was July.
I had my fair share of negatives that happened this past month, but I also had a balance of positives too. It took a toll on me, and there came a point where I was seriously emotionally exhausted. In the span of one day, or one weekend, or just throughout the entire month, the highs and lows were everywhere. I felt like the stock market last week LoL. My birthday itself was great for most of the day, but then took a turn for the worst later. Then, the next day, I had a blast and it smoothed out. I FINALLY got my passport back for India, only to find out that I wasn’t going anymore (which is a LONG STORY in itself, but I won’t go there). I got some pretty alarming news about a girl I used to talk to. There was a bunch of civil turmoil. Hell at work. I got a promotion. And of course, the website was FINALLY launched. Seriously, that’s way more eventful than usual, especially since a lot of it was some big-ticket ish. Just thinking about it makes me feel drained LoL. At the end of the day though, I survived and I’m still in one piece.
I guess what I’m starting to realize is that I’m different. In the past, if all those things happened to me (even despite all the positives), I’d be like “why me?” I’d dwell upon the drama and I’d probably overanalyze everything. I’d be a pessimist. Nowadays, however, I have this re-instilled faith that energizes me. Instead of focusing on the negatives, I have much more of a positive outlook on things. So what if I didn’t go to India? That just means there’s something better in store for me here. Big deal if my birthday didn’t go exactly as I planned it. I still had a blast with a lot of great people. And who cares if there was something that went down with the girl I mentioned above? It only means my time is still coming. I have a different outlook on life, and that’s because of everything I’ve been put through. So yeah…don’t worry about me. I’m good.
Moving past the bumpy road that was July, I was able to return back to my notebook and get some writing done. Since the website is now up and running, I’ve been able to get back to other priorities I have (like music). I just exported the vocals for the second single, so that’s on the horizon. I’ve also got some placements on a few new mixtapes, and I’m also inching closer to completing the new CD. There’s also a few exciting show opportunities in the mix, so there’s that too. All in all, music is going well and will continue to pop off. I mean c’mon, the website is LIVE now.
Outside of music, I’ve also engaged in Rosetta Stone, so I can get my Hindi on (watch out Bollywood, I’m coming). I’ve tried to get back into the gym, reconnect with friends, and also focus more on family. It’s a good feeling…I can’t front.
So anyway, moving past allllllll of that, I’ve also come across some JAMS this past month (and videos, of course). I’m still lovin’ the Bad Meets Evil album. Also diggin’ the Jay-Z Kanye album, although I still need some more listens to it. Here’s some of the music and videos I’ve been loving lately. By the way, the Game Primo song is my candidate for song of the year.
With that said, I’m hungry. And so, when I get hungry, guess what I do? I EAT! (Didn’t see that one coming, did you?) Anyways, thanks for keeping up with me and the site. Muchos gracias. Until next episode folks…stay up, stay safe, and hold ya’ head. Ajaxxx signin’ out…PEACE!
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