“Everything must eventually come to an end
So try to savor your moments, cuz time flies don’t it
The beauty of life, you gotta make it last for the better
Cuz nothin’ lasts forever, ya know”
– Nas on “Nothing Lasts Forever“
Life is a trip, isn’t it? It moves so fast and waits for no one. It passes you by in a flash and you’re left wondering where did the time go? It’s relentless, aggressive, and unforgiving. Yet despite all that, if you take the time to savor the special moments, it’s a beautiful thing. If you live at your own pace and take in the scenes, you really appreciate it. As we get older, close friends drift apart, hobbies that you once loved fade away, and your views on what’s important change too. It’s a rollercoaster, but I guess that’s a part of growing up…
Whatup my peoples??? Welcome to the July 2012 Opinions Column. July marks one year that the brand new Ajaxxx.com website has been live and online. Where’d the time go, right? For those that’re new to the site, welcome aboard. This is the spot where you can probe my brain alien-style to find out what’s goin’ on. To those that’re visiting again, welcome back and thanks for checking back up on me. And with that said, let’s talk about growing up.
So before I continue, you gotta’ be wondering…what’s with all the introspectiveness, ‘Jaxxx? Well, my birthday’s this month and whenever I hit this milestone I reflect. Not just that, but this past year has been really eventful. I’ve had some good moments and some not-so-good moments. I’ve gained friends and I’ve lost friends. And career-wise, I’ve made some pretty good strides too. So yes, there’s been a lot. One thing that I think I’ve taken with me more than anything else is that after awhile, you really start to figure out who your ride-or-die friends are…especially when you’re in a bind. I mean, I’ve had some krazy ass moments throughout my life…like stuff you wouldn’t believe moments. Over the course of my life though, I’ve realized who’s there for me and who isn’t. It’s eye-opening for real.
The other thing that bears on me is that you really don’t know what’s coming. You do your best to plan for the future, but you don’t expect certain things to happen. And at least for me, I always thought I did. I thought I knew who I was, how I am, and how I’d be. However, key experiences changed how I thought and how I felt about everything. Sometimes it takes something like a break-up or a death or a failure to really shake you and get you back on track. When I was like 19 or 20, I was another person. Nowadays, I’m more mature and have prioritized life differently. I used to prioritize my life around other people…now I’m more focused on me.
Growing up hasn’t always been easy. I mean, let’s be real..it still isn’t. I wasn’t ready to let go of certain things or certain people, and I definitely wasn’t expecting to experience so much all at once. Between all the ups and downs, sometimes I wonder how I’m still alive. But I mean, it’s been worth it. I haven’t always said that, but recent experiences have changed my mind. You have to let things go from your past in order to embrace better things in your future. Stuff to live by, right? It’s always been a difficult concept to wrap my head around, but I’m slowly coming to terms with it. The best is yet to come. And don’t worry, although I’m getting older, I haven’t really “grown up” – I’m still a kid at heart with an imagination.
On the music front, I’ve also matured my sound and have really locked in on my style. I was all over the place before, but now I know who I am and what I’m doing…which leads me into my next topic, music.
Getting away from the drama for justtt a second LoL, I just got the second single back which I’ll be dropping soon. With a new single, there will also be a new video. And with a new video, there will be more opportunities. In addition to the single droppin’, I’m making some GREAT progress with the rest of the CD and hope to be wrapping it up soon. I’m probably one song away from being completed, which is insane to even think about! So yeah, I’d be lying if I told you I wasn’t excited.
I think what helped me a great deal in getting back on track with the music is changing who I was working with. I continued to work with the same lazy people for awhile, and finally decided to break away and link with more driven, productive individuals. I stopped relying on those that were stagnant and got with those that were making moves. Believe me, it’s made a world of a difference and I feel a lot better about things. So yes, new videos ARE coming soon and I’m excited.
So what’s in store for July? Well, I’ll be celebrating my birthday which is gonna’ be krazy. I’m going to do some traveling. And, I’ll continue to work aggressively towards my goal of finalizing this CD. It’s been a long time coming but I finally see the finish line.
And with that said, thank you. Thank you to everyone that’s supported me…not just musically, but throughout the years in any way. You’ve all contributed to who I am today and I’m grateful for that. It hasn’t been the easiest road, and I’m still growing up as we speak…but I feel like I’ve come a long way.
Stay up, stay safe, and hold ya’ head…Ajaxxx signin’ out…PEACE!
