“Back when I was nothin’, you made a brother feel like he was somethin’
That’s why I’m with you to this day boo, no frontin”

– Method Man on “All I Need/I’ll Be There For You“

What is the meaning of love? It’s a million dollar question, isn’t it? Back in the day, I thought I knew the answer to that. Fast forward to today and I’m not so sure anymore. Times have changed, girls have come and gone, and priorities have shifted drastically. Love used to be “magical”…now, I don’t know what it is. Before digging deeper, think about it for a second…what is the meaning of love?

What is up my peoples? Greetings and happy November. Can you believe it’s November already? Kraziness indeed. Welcome to the November 2012 Ajaxxx.com Opinions Column. This is the place where I talk about anything and everything that’s been on my mind all month (and you’re in for a good one this time around). For all those that’re new to the site, thank you and welcome…glad to have you join me. For those that’re frequent visitors, welcome back and thank you as well. And with that said, let’s talk more about this whole meaning of love thing.

So you must be wondering, right…what’s the deal with this whole love intro? Well, let’s just say October was a really interesting month that had me ponder upon a lot of things love-related. When I was in college, my whole definition of love (and the purpose of being in love) was one thing…today, it’s very different. I used to think people fell in love to be happy. Now, I’m pretty happy without it in my life. I also used to think it was the cure to being alone. Nowadays, I’m always so busy with 500 things that I hardly have time to think about being alone. Basically what I’m tryna say is, the definition of love has changed (at least for me). It doesn’t have the “allure” it once did, especially with all the drama that accompanies it. I honestly wonder whether someone can change that for me, or if a string of bad relationships have unknowingly changed my stance of what I once felt.

The funny (and ironic) thing is, I’m pretty happy in my life. No really, I am. I have my family, my health, and lots more to be thankful about. I’ve got a lot to look forward to, and I’m blessed in a lot of ways. Therefore, I’m not hanging onto the hope of love or secretly wishing it saves my life. Ironically, I’ve gotten into Bollywood cinema a lot over the last few years too…and even that romanticized view of love hasn’t swayed me. I mean yeah, don’t get me wrong…I still hope it comes my way but it’s just not the same as how I thought about it in the past. And when I see everyone in the world chasing after it, every song on the radio talking about it, and every person I know push me towards it…it makes me wonder if there’s something wrong with me.

What I do know is, I’m a different person with different priorities and that’s affected me a great deal. Let’s see what the future holds…

Shifting topics, I wanted to give everyone an update on the new music video. So basically, I was scheduled to shoot a vid this upcoming weekend actually. However, with Hurricane Sandy ravaging the east coast, my plans have been delayed. My thoughts and prayers are really with all the people affected by this crazy storm. You can’t always expect this stuff, but what you can do is keep an optimistic outlook. So yeah, I won’t be shooting my video when I thought I would. Trust me too, I was REALLY excited to finallyyyyyy make this happen. However, I WILL shoot this video and it WILL get released. The song is done. So yes, it’s coming…

Also while on the topic of music, I’ve been peepin’ a lot of new music this past month. Here are my thoughts on some new albums that dropped recently.

Kendrick Lamar – good kid, m.A.A.d city

So the Compton emcee finally drops his album. After experiencing a lot of buzz and exposure over the last year (especially after working with Dr. Dre), Kendrick releases “good kid, m.A.A.d city.” So what’d I think? It’s a refreshing, unique, and creative-ass album. He’s got a really abstract flow about him, but his beat selection makes it work. I was underimpressed with some of his previous mixtapes, but this changed my mind. It really reminded me of some old school Goodie Mob/Outkast mixed with west coast flavor. The hip hop game is currently oversaturated with generic rappers and overdone topics, so it was REALLY good to hear someone come out with an album like this. And if the single “Swimming Pools (Drank)” is any indication of his uniqueness, he’s got a bright future ahead of ’em.

Xzibit – Napalm

Ok so wow. One of my boys suggested I check out Xzibit’s new album, which I honestly wasn’t thinking about. I used to be a HUGE Xzibit fans and had each of his albums. However, the last couple of albums really left me wanting more. I felt like he ran outta stuff to rap about and lost his way. Well, Mr. X to the Z is back in full force with “Napalm.” Xzibit really opens up on this album, touching on some pretty personal topics. In addition, his production is super on-point with a mix of hardcore bangers with west coast smoothness. I gotta give it to him for sticking to it and continuing to make this music. Is it the same fire from his first few albums? No, but times are different too, and so is he. It’s still a REALLY good album…in fact, it’s probably one of my FAVORITE albums of the year.

I’ve also been peeping new albums from Styles of Beyond and Vinnie Paz, along with music from B.o.B. Shouts to Mr. Bobby Ray on some super hot videos that I never checked for until recently. I’ll leave you with one below:

Okay, so I’ve talked about love, how I’ve changed, my new video, new albums that’ve dropped, and how B.o.B. has dropped some fire. I’m all over the place, aren’t I? LoL krazy thing is, I’m only touching the surface. LOTS more happened this month too, but I don’t wanna bore you to death either! So I’m sayin, I’ll leave you with that.

Hopefully November brings me clarity with this whole love thing. And by the way, I’ll be outta pocket this month…I’m going to Singapore! I’m really looking forward to getting away for a few weeks and enjoying a vacation. Okay peeps, time to be out. Stay up, stay safe, and hold ya’ head…Ajaxxx signin’ out, PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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