“I’m really too young to be feelin’ this old” – Drake on “Over“
For some reason, whenever things are going super great, the “rollercoaster” that is my life returns to ground me. I’m not sure if it’s just me (although I’m confident it’s not), but it’s something that continues to arrive unexpectedly. Despite how often things go bad after a streak of positive news, I still don’t prepare myself for when it does. Maybe you can’t, I dunno. All I know is, despite whatever drama is going on in your life, you gotta push it aside and think positive.
Whatup everyone? It’s Ajaxxx back at it with the newest edition of the Opinions Column. For those that’re new to the site, this is the one spot on the entire planet earth (just earth though lol) where you can dig within my brain to find out all that’s going on. There’s tons going on too, so you’re in for a good one. For those that’re returning to the site, welcome back and glad to see you again. And with that part outta the way, let’s talk about the month that was May…and more importantly, why we gotta think positive.
So if you recall from last month’s Opinion Column, I had a whirlwind of things going on that really made my life exciting. Between a new single and video, a performance in another city, and even moving, there was just so much going on. I anticipated May to be just as krazy (or even krazier) than the month before, but it didn’t really go the way I saw it in my head. In fact, it went very different. Now don’t get me wrong, May wasn’t bad or terrible or agonizingly painful. Nah, it wasn’t that at all. In fact, May was good. I dropped my new single FINALLY after years (which is a milestone), I released the new cover artwork for the single, and I even released the teaser for my upcoming video too. However, the video still isn’t out yet…and once again, I’m waiting.
It seems like this has become a really big theme in my life. Between October 2012’s “Patience” to February 2013’s “The Waiting Game”, I talk about waiting a lot. Whether it’s a mixdown or a video (the video for “Blow” is a huge story in itself), it’s something I’ve struggled with throughout my career and it seems like I still haven’t figured it out yet. However (and I tell myself this everytime), I gotta think positive. It’s so easy…SO EASY…to think negatively and feel like the world’s against you and blame everyone else. I won’t do that. Instead, I’m gonna think positive. Not because I’m naive or blind or something…but because it makes the most sense to me. And not just that, there IS a lot to be positive about.
The Video
So with that, you must be wondering what’s up with the video? Well, I got the update and it looks like we’re still working on the editing. I’ve gotten a ton of questions about it from a variety of different angles, and I understand that a lot of people are excited to see it (especially after seeing the teaser). I’m confident that we will be seeing the video for “One of a Kind” veryyy soon. Trust me, I’m also super excited to see it and be able to share it with all of you. It’s one of my fav songs, and I put a ton of work into it. One thing I gotta continue to remind myself is that quality takes time and I gotta be patient. So yeah man, that’s what I’m tryna do. And oh yea, while you wait, did I mention that the single for “One of a Kind” is now on iTunes! See, another reason to think positive! Ehem ehem, so have you downloaded your copy yet?
My Health
So outside of the video, there are some other areas in my life that’ve went a different direction than I anticipated. I shouldn’t even say anticipated, cause it’s not like this was on my radar to begin with. Perhaps one of the biggest things I’ve been dealing with lately regards my health. Now I’m not tryna put out all my personal biz (I’ll save that for the music), but I got some pretty krazy news this past month from my doctor. In fact, this whole year has been one thing after another about a bunch of things. It’s like as soon as one thing passes, something else arises. It’s like what Drake said, right? “I’m really too young to be feeling this old.” This is one of those times where I can definitely relate. I dunno what’s going on with me, especially since I’m still fairly young in the grand scheme of things. But I mean, I’m not worried. I have faith and that’ll be my strength.
Missed Opportunity
I also had a big career move coming up in the graphic/web design field which would have opened up a lot of doors for me, but it doesn’t look like that’s happening anymore either. Yeah, I was really optimistic about the whole thing so when I got the news it really surprised me. Again, I was making great progress for awhile and this was also part of last month’s whirlwind. However, in true “this is how my life is” fashion, things turned sour. But I’m sayin, it’s all good. Whenever something goes bad, something good usually comes from it. That’s held true in my life so far, so I’m not stressin’ it. Who knows, maybe it wasn’t my time?
So if you haven’t gotten the drift by now, things have been kinda krazy in my life this past month. Between the music to my health to a missed opportunity, nothing has gone according to plan. Compound that with female problems (of course, right) and it’s like 2013 is no different than last year…or the year before…or the year before. I dunno man, it’s like this cycle that I can’t break free from despite all my efforts. I guess what I’m starting to learn is that all of this is part of life…not just my life, but life in general. The only thing you can control is your attitude. You can either let pessimism take over you, or let the positivity win instead. I’ll choose the latter.
Anyway, I think I’ve rambled on for long enough. So what’s in store for June? Well, hopefully we’ll be seeing the video. In addition, I’m gonna work towards ANOTHER video, along with finalizing some more new music for the album. No matter what, I can’t stay stagnant. I told myself 2013 was the year to better myself, and that’s what I’m on.
Okay peoples, til next time…stay up, stay safe, and hold ya head…Ajaxxx signing out, PEACEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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