“Cause sometimes you just feel tired, feel weak
And when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up
But you got to search within you, and try to find that inner strength
And just pull that shit out of you
And get that motivation to not give up, and not be a quitter
No matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face, and collapse”

– Eminem on “Till I Collapse“

Where do you go? What do you do? What’s it all for? I find myself asking these questions a lot, and especially this past month. I guess you could say I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching. It seems like I’ve hit a rut in life and things just aren’t going the way I expected. Instead of eventfulness, I’m in stalemate-ness (because that’s a word). I’m used to things really poppin’ off, but these past couple of months have been the opposite. I mean don’t get me wrong, there have been highlights; but without the consistency, everything just feels empty. And when it’s like this, I start asking myself: what’s my purpose?

Whatupppp everyone? What’s goin’ on? It’s ya boy Ajaxxx back at it with the September 2013 Opinions Column. For those that’re new to the site, this is the numero uno spot where you can dig deep within my internal brain tissues (can you get any more nasty) and find out what’s going on with yours truly. Actually the best place for that would be the music, but hey. For those that’re returning to the site, welcome back! And with that outta the way, let’s talk about August…and my attempt to find my purpose.

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“Fear not when, fear not why,
Fear not much while were alive,
Life is for living not living up tight,
See ya somewhere up in the sky”

– Jay-Z on “Forever Young“

So lately, I’ve been getting this vibe from people around me that “we’re getting older.” And yes, we are. At the same time, just because we’re getting older doesn’t mean we’re dead. We’re still alive. If we weren’t, I wouldn’t be writing this and you wouldn’t be reading it. Life is short and I’ve got the mindset of “you know what, do it up while you can.” I don’t let something like my age limit me and I definitely don’t use it deter me from living it up. We’re here and that’s what matters.

Whatup my peoples? Welcome to the August 2013 Opinions Column. This is the place where you can jump dig deep within my brain (like a neurosurgeon) to find out what’s going on. For those that’re new to the site, welcome…glad to have you join me. And for those that’re returning, you already know what to expect. July was a super eventful month and I wanna talk all about it. So with our intro outta the way, let’s talk more about staying young…shall we?

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“Let me relive my younger days just once again, reenact my memories
from every friend to every sin, keeping demons buried in…
my closet, but yet I put in work like a deposit
on my bank account, My eyes lit while I think about my childhood
now I’m blanking out, those were truly my best days…”

– J. Cole on “Farewell“

I’ve been doing a lot of reading about time lately. I’ve also had a few convos with some friends over the last month on the topic too. For some reason, time seems to move much faster now than when we were younger. Moments that you looked forward to are just blurs in the past now. Milestones have become memories, and it’s hard to comprehend why. I don’t know what it is (and there are a ton of theories out there), but time flies much faster when you get older. Compound that with not “taking the time to smell the roses”, and well…it’s even harder to figure out where the time went.

What is up my peoples? Welcome one and all to the July 2013 Opinions Column. July is my birthday month! With every birthday month Opinions Column, I get extra deep/philosophical/borderline krazy. This year is no different, especially since there’s a ton on my mind that I wanna talk about…especially dealing with time. If you’re new to the site, this is the place where I talk about everythinggggg going on within the chasms of my brizzain. And if you’re returning, muchas gracias! I love you! LoL and with that outta the way, let’s talk about something that I’ve been thinking about (and talking about) throughout the past month…time.

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“I’m really too young to be feelin’ this old” – Drake on “Over“

For some reason, whenever things are going super great, the “rollercoaster” that is my life returns to ground me. I’m not sure if it’s just me (although I’m confident it’s not), but it’s something that continues to arrive unexpectedly. Despite how often things go bad after a streak of positive news, I still don’t prepare myself for when it does. Maybe you can’t, I dunno. All I know is, despite whatever drama is going on in your life, you gotta push it aside and think positive.

Whatup everyone? It’s Ajaxxx back at it with the newest edition of the Opinions Column. For those that’re new to the site, this is the one spot on the entire planet earth (just earth though lol) where you can dig within my brain to find out all that’s going on. There’s tons going on too, so you’re in for a good one. For those that’re returning to the site, welcome back and glad to see you again. And with that part outta the way, let’s talk about the month that was May…and more importantly, why we gotta think positive.

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“Daylight beams, night life schemes
This is my inception, I’m writing my dreams”

– Common on “Blue Sky“

You ever feel like there are so many things going on in your life, that you’re trapped in a whirlwind? Like you got a million things to juggle and you gotta try your best to handle it all? Well, that’s how my April felt like…except the whirlwind was great.

Whatup y’all? What’s poppin?? Welcome to the May 2013 Opinions Column! It’s an exciting time in my life and I’m excited to share it with you. If you’re new to the site, this is the spot where you can dig deep into my head to find out all that’s going on. I tend to ramble n ramble n ramble n…see, you get the point lol. For those that’re returning to the site, thank you and welcome back! You know the drills. AND with that outta the way, let’s talk about the whirlwind that was April!

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